weird stuff

Hey girls.
It's been quiet in here lately...how is everyone?

So, for mostly selfish reasons, I missed you girls a lot today. I miss you often because you are absolutely some of the best people I know, of course, but today I wanted you to hold my hand and help me figure out how to respond to some madness that happened here...

So...as I said in my last post, the ex had emailed me. Weird, but no biggie, right? Well...he warned me that something was coming in the mail; that something arrived today. It was a dvd video that he had made of himself talking to me. Weird, right? I thought maybe he was just being...well...weird, and tried not to freak out too early. Then he starts talking about what great friends we were, and recounting memories...and then wraps it up by, basically, asking for another try with me (oh, adding in there, btw, that he's dated other people and I was the best...not sure how that's supposed to help his case any...). It was, I guess, a very sweet gesture, one I wish more guys were courageous enough to make. But it was definitely from the wrong guy or to the wrong girl, or something. So now it's up to me to figure out how to respond to this; he said I could email or call (no kidding, he had the number appear at the bottom of the screen like they do in infomercials--I wish I could figure out how to show this whole thing to you; but I also don't want to totally be bashing him, so maybe it's good I can't?)

In other, kinda-but-not-really-related news, I had dinner with J last night. The purpose was to talk about youth stuff, which we did; I prayed a lot before that my heart wouldn't get too ahead of my silly little head, and I think I'm doing okay with all that. I mean, I still like him more than I ought to; but at least meeting with him didn't somehow make all that worse or anything. After my talk with him (and some of my own previous thoughts/convos with my sis) I'm even more worked up about my church. It's funny, because J dislikes the same things I do about our church, but perceives them differently. It was a really good convo for me to have, one that I'm probably going to be processing for a while, as it will determine how I interact with/think about my home church. I'm hopeful that the heartbeat of the church can be changed, but I'm not sure how, if that makes sense.

Anyway...I would love to talk with all of you! This weekend is crazy busy, but I'll make time to talk with you all!

Hannah, I wanted to hear from you for sure about Easter? Did you run it by Matt? I totally want to talk to you, but was hesitant to call from the brevity and mystery of your previous post. Will you call me sometime? More than talking about Easter, I just want to talk about LIFE with you! Because I love you! That goes for all of you!! :)

Love you, friends.
-Danielle