hi fokes

I never understood the need for an "L" in folks. Right now I'm at work, about 5 seconds away from getting a flu shot.

Okay, its over now. I REALLY hope that i don't get sick tomorrow. sometimes people do. but I don't wanna get the flu from one of my patients in the hospital, and i really can't afford to get it and be missing clinical.

speaking of, i am almost finished at the first hospital (nearly half way done!!). i am looking forward to it. like danielle, i feel like i've hit rock bottom too. i've had two really bad days at clinicals-- i can't seem to get my IV's to go in, having troubling keeping up with charting and just feeling on top of things. its hard to explain, but there is a definitie sense of being either caught up and a step ahead or you feel like you are constantly drowning and always playing catch up. i have been stuck in those last categories for a while now. i know its only two days really, but its all i've got to work with right now. this is like my only chance to "get it" while i still have a safety net. i dno't want to be making mistakes and this is human lives!! i can't afford mistakes!

so, i'm whining too. Matt's been really encouraging, but its more a mental thing. at least i finally got my period, a day late(!) so THAT stress is off my shoulders. you guys can't even imagine how much i LOVE getting my period now! = )

i don't feel like trying to explain everything in life. things in general are good. Matt's job needs some adjustment right now...he's really frustrated with some things going on there. if you think of us, pray for him at work, that he and Pete can come up with a compromise. Matt is getting very overworked right now.

Thanksgiving I can hardly wait for!!! sorry i didn't get the car message danielle. you should have called me. i don't really know my schedule that far in advance. i don't think i'll have class, but i might have clinicals one or two of those days. i will really try and get them done before or after our little vaca. until then, i won't be able to let you know if i can drive you around or not. i'd feel better knowning you guys weren't stuck somewhere if I couldn't be there...i will have to be seeing my husband at times too. btw, i think the Holiday Inn is about $65/night. remember, we can alwyas do easy stuff like buy bagels and cream cheese and toast them at my place or whatever. my place is your place! you guys haven't seen the "new" place either!

i guess thats all for me. i'm sorry for such long absneces, though at least i'm not like VAL!! you and michelle owe me phone calls, and i cry myself to sleep at night b/c you guys don't love me enough to call. i love everyone! see you soon!!!!!!!